My depressing moments

i was just going through all of these pictures of when i was actually happy. Then i read this depressing story that was based on real life.. The evilness that is bestowed upon me. Im like all emo for no reason.. i dont even know why i decided to write in here...ya im gonna go now

Oriontation(or however you spell it)

I cant wait to see ash;ey tomorrow. But i am gonna hate seeing all of the annoying people i hate...i almost cant wait for school to start,just so i dont have to think about my mom ...or be around her or anyone else in my family for that matter, except for adam and tanya and kirsten.... i am in a very bla mood. last night i went to sleep at 4:oo:am....and i got up at 12:30...sleeping is such a fucking waste...i am not staying up all night tonight though. But before school starts i am gonna stay up for 48 hours...my goal....i am so happy that i finally got to talk to ashley!!!!!!! B+A bff

im abo...

im about to go watch tv and then go to sleep. I took the tv from my bedroom and put it right next to my computer. I only wish i had a bed in this room. i would never leave. I would enclose myself in here ...earlier tonight i went and turned on the light in here and it blew so i just took the light from the bathroom. Then i decided at like 3:00 am that i wanted to take a shower, and so i got a blue light and put it in the bathroom and took a shower with a blue light...that was amusing....now im just plain bored...i visited every website possible and now there isnt anything left to do...I listened to so much music today....now im gonna go to bed a 3:45 am....

I...

I havent talked to ashley in so long. I think she went to California. I emailed her so many times but she hasn't returned any. My entire family is in one big stupid argument. Its actually kind of funny. I have been listening to music non stop all day.. I hope my mom gets mad (-: she is such an evil bitch. When i slept over my friend amelias for the weekend, i had cleaned my room spotless and when i came back i noticed all of these little things moved around...Then i found out she went searching through my room. I was so pissed. So now i hung up stupid signs in my drawers and in my closet and its like "if you are in this drawer, that means you are snooping around..i hate you..you are such a bad person" bla bla....they are cruel though... but thats ok because my mom is a heartless person who hates me and loves my brother. Im excited to go back to school for the simple reason that i can hang out with ashley...I think my mom is going to send me to live in buffalo...but i will go happily...there are so many malls out there...omg they are everywhere...i think i should live there..I hate being home on the weekend because my mom is home ALL day..well im gonna go find something else to do because i have nothing to talk about)-: ASHLEY CALL ME !!!!!

My new journal

i dont like my old journal so i made a new one. Hopefully it will work.